I enter and i won't leave
My shoulder hurts alot, i can't barely stand the pain already. I guess i have to see the doctor as soon as possible. My games are coming next week and my Bangkok game is drawing nearer, i can't play if my condition is still like this. I even played just ONE pathetic game just now at the street soccer because there is this guy who pushes me accidentally. Let me tell you, the pain is really fucked up. My condition is getting worst and no one cares about me anymore! What a pathetic child i am right?
Ive been thinking alot, im already 16 and next year im turning 17. I guess im already old enough to understand the aspect of life. But i somehow sometimes does not care whats gonna happen to my future. I like to do things like there's nobody business. I left my secondary school life already, next step is much more challenging and this next step will eventually predict my future. If im still going to play around, i have to be ready to say good bye to future. Readers have patience with me, i know ive always been updating about my problems but i think this is the safest place for me to throw out all my feelings that ive kept before.
Now that ive entered your life, let me tell you one thing and i promise this, I enter and i won't leave. I don't care with all those fights we are going to face but still im not leaving you and the won't be any reasons for me to leave. I never had this angry feelings towards you before, so please keep that in mind sweet. Stranger gave me a new name just now while sending her home, i forgot what she called me. But what i know is, that name is really awful! Calling her soon and im going off now.
Firdaus Jeffrey signing off
Cheerios!
Labels: pssst- in love with you
@ Thursday, October 22, 200911:46 PM.
